A Special One...

June' 09 -

A month back from today ...

I found a special SOMEONE

or maybe he found me

or was it fate ordained, chance or destiny?

pre-destination that may be called in any name

it feels like an act destined

at time's beginning

an unseen to be seen

when it was meant to be

It’s something I'll never know

it doesn’t matter now -

for the bond has been

nurtured to be very strong

So much of him I like & adore

his gentle expression 

sealed with warmth

his witty humor n' impressive intellect

cast in a honest face

and an ever-ready smile 

flashed through concerned eyes

Our relation is special to me in so many ways

that it cannot be so easily defined

but know that -

it means the WORLD to me

to have known and bonded with him

incised with hope & true care

counting the days and hours we spend together

cherishing them in memory to live for ever...

Soul Redeemer

The world looked at me through shattered glass

piercing at my every body part

steadily hurting but never quite knowing

that the pain within me was growing

everything moved and continued to move

everthing transformed and continued to transform

the entire surrounding was caving in on me

with every passing moment, rising my agony

my soul though captured, yearned to set free

the mere thought of which seemed blasphemy

the light that I saw was from the dead stars

the new born ones were miles apart

such was the paradox of my life

that my fractured soul sought to know

what was it that it had done

for not finding love in abandon

To each one is obliged a soulmate I was told

and so he came across as the restorer of my soul

he healed my heart and set it free

he muted the forces that were oppresssing me

he brought in with him an oppurtune for my rebirth

I sought solace in him; he gave me back my earth

You...

My light, love, inspiration

with you, my soul has been redeemed

I am no longer simply existing

at long last, I have started living!!

feeling low

my head's spinning around 

with a whirlwind of memories

my spirits seem to have sunken down

devoid n' deplete of all energies

I want these moments to be lost in time

like the tears in the rain

O! how I wish I could experience peace

without embracing the pains

I want to escape from this abyss

but I don't know where to go

I want to tide over these emotions

but I don't know what to do

I am feeling low is all I know

my heart is feeling blue!

You hurt me...

I thought we were bonded in love,

on the very premise of trust,

but I know now ~

it wasn't the same for you

and so my heart you hurt !

you promised me you would care,

you said you wouldn't hurt ever,

n' I took it all as gospel ~

but my life you turned it hell !

when you said you had

not yet made up ya mind

were all the true love

claims of yours asinine?

behind my back with my friend

you tried to connive

and made me look like a fool

was I a real dumb lass to confide

n' share it all with you?

your tacit denial of our relation ~

broke my heart and shattered my dreams,

they took me back to the world I bequeathed,

a place filled with my tears, fears and screams !

I looked back to see if I'd faltered,

or done something to seed ya thoughts,

I found out I had done nothing as such

n' it was ya wile that got us to lurch !

do you know that here I am crying

shedding tear drops for someone like you?

for all your promises of not hurting me

remain baseless and untrue !

I know that you'll never change,

I am feeling trapped within a maze,

I don't know if I can take

it all in my stride..??

for truth remains unscathed ~

that you have hurt me and my pride..!!

Never Alone!

I read your thoughts 

in the morn when I first awake

I feel you are with me

in every step that I take

I miss you not being around

from the first breath that I took

but since you stepped in my life

for love I never had to look

The close bond that we have shared

from our first encounter with each other

will take us through the miles

in our journey together

Although we are spread apart

we look at the same sky above

none amidst us is ever alone

we are wrapped as one in our love

You are "The One"

Fate, finally has been kind

after such a long time

as it blessed me with thine

n' destined you for me

I know YOU are "The One"

yes, my love, you are mine!

I have always needed you

n' now, that I have you by my side

do hold my hand n' lead me away

into your world, abode your place

n' chase away my fears n' doubts

as you wipe the tears off my face

I need you to take me off my past

n' heal my shattered soul n' heart

after all the trials that I have had

I hope together, we remain glad

God, sent you as my angel from above

I promise, I shall once again learn to love

I can feel my heart open again

I know it's opening only for you

just come in, and love me lots

that's all I want you to do

as my mind wonders n' heart beats

I realize, I'm nothing without you

you are the one who makes me whole

you have deeply touched my soul

I've made you, now, my reason to live

All of myself, to you, I give

you are my world, you are my heart

now, I cannot live, with you apart!

Lost Alone

Lost is my soul

alone am I 

in the shadowless 

dark within myself

surrounded by fears

I scream I yell

but I hear no sound

I shed no tears

I try to take a step

but find no path

its' a bottomless pit

on which I seem 

to have embarked

the only possessor 

of my arcane lore

I feel to my life

there is nothing more

so lost alone am I 

that lonely is my soul

my hearts' a void

a rubble of 

mirthless beats 

that keep me alive 

even when 

I'm dead meat