She...

She was crazy

She was funny

She was emotional

She was badass

She was calm

She was chaos

She was unexplainable

as

she was all that she was

and all that she was not!

She was poetry in a world

that was striving

to learn the syllabary.

Deep in Stillness

On the outset ~

she appears stoned, numbed

with a blanked out mind

but this isn't the truth

she is deep in stillness

with an unusual calm within

that has embraced her wholly

so much that the chaos outside

can't touch her even remotely

such is the depth n' power

of her profound silence

that has got matured into stillness

she seems to have mastered the art

of controlling all her emotions

such that her true feelings

no longer feel as feelings

yet they are all existing

within the tomb of her soul

where she has laid them all in

akin to her innocent dreams

to take it along with her

when the unsullied virgin

white light will guide her

to shed her body on earth to leave

for heavenly abode, letting her take

with her only her pristine soul..!!

Nature's Fury...

Bombay, July 26, 2005 ~

Her eyes glaring at the non-obeisance

her unrelenting fury on the rising violence

her silent cries ruffled by the aberrance

her radiance filled energy striking at humans

in the form of intensified lightning bolts

as a mark of an end of her endured resilience

scathing everything within her vision

such was her anger that she destroyed lives

submerging the city that never slept

shaking earth as she kept moving on n' on

leaving indelible emotional scars at every turn

devouring the mark left behind in the minds

of humans by the avalanche n' deluge!

The chaos, wrath, fury took awhile to calm

and 'twas in the queer stillness that it dawned

that Nature to be commanded must first be obeyed

and behind the realm of her wisdom n' benevolence

resides a fierce acerbic unmatched super power

which is best when in its soft demeanour form!

To invoke or soothe this Nature's fury, and

Time's wrath - lies totally unto us…

Let’s together ensure that it will not recur..!!

Ambiguous Life

What do I express of life, this life

save, it's nothing but an ambiguous life!!

a moment of chaos, a moment of calm,

a moment of roar, a moment of whisper,

a moment of light, a moment of darkness,

a moment of sense, a moment of conflict,

a moment of love, a moment of hate,

a moment of clamor, a moment of silence,

a moment of pleasure, a mment of pain,

a moment of pretence, a moment of reality,

a moment of grotesque, a moment of beauty,

a moment of depression, a moment of hope,

and, so many more contrariness

all stemming from the life ~

birth in this mysterious universe,

where time flows forever like the river

undeterred in its journey n' forever sparkling

bringing in a new facet with it every new day

that changes a part of us; for good or bad

but who's the master to judge, no one knows..??

life moves on and the cycle continues on n' on

till one fine day when death takes you away

to yet another unfamiliar unknown territory

where you rest in peace from this damnation

setting your spirited soul free for eternity

nothing would change after you're dead n' gone

there would be a momentary pause by the loved ones

till they find their grounds n' surge ahead, and

the universe continues its vicious rigmarole

birthing new souls n' taking them through it all

just like how it did with you while you lasted here

such are the vagaries of life, our ambiguous life..!!

Chaos or Calm..??

Stepped in a media world...

where chaos is considered calm

n' buck passes are the norm,

where sanity is not to be sought,

n' integral values remain a naught,

where reality checks fail to exist,

n' abstainities is what the new have to seek,

where a range of emotions keep bursting forth

for no rhyme or reason, making you feel soaked,

warring ego's n' emotions here seem the daily grind

grounds to hold the battle is what one has to find.

I try keep intact apart while they attack,

pretending to be strong when I'm yielding inside,

Defenseless, yes...

I need my own shield, if I have to sustain,

to do a real clean sweep n' set it in place,

I thought I had few souls to rely on,

but in no frigging time, they all let me down.

I cannot align with this fetid realm,

there is so much conflict going on in my mind,

should I leave this world n' start anew,

deep within, I don't want to give up so soon..!!

If chaos is outside, would calmness be within?

Will I be able to set order in this world that is sinned?

I know it ain't easy, for this is a world of bucksin,

but, I will put in my heart out in cent percent,

before I force myself to rethink n' call it THE END.