Fragmented

fragmented mind filled with

fragmented thoughts

fragmented feelings in a 

fragmented heart

fragmented darkness streaked with

fragmented white

O! what do I make of this

fragmented life..?!

Mind Matters..!!

As I lie down...
I see a myriad of images 
reeling through my eyes
along with the voices in my head
these demons, they deprave me
of my sleep and any form of peace
I don't blame them for I birthed them
when I went thru' conflicting moments in life
consequentially, the thoughts 
settled deep in the confines of my mind 
and created a level of chaos
that I've never witnessed before
where I am ME and yet not ME..!!

Interlude

I choose to live free but in autonomity
and for this I shall do all that I can
with resolute strength I'll fight away the demons
and with the gifted ability to handle crisis
I'll cross all the barriers enroute
and leave my mark on the paths traveled
I'll sweep and purge my mind from all the cobwebs
to make room for fresh thoughts and opportunities
and pave the way for a new beginning from here on
I'll never look into my past for that's not my way
but the only time I will ever look back 
or dwell in it will be when I want to know 
how far ahead I've come in life..!!

Twistedness

Euphoric grandeur

ecstatic feelings

fuddled enamoured mind

with muddled reasoning

transcendental state of being

spell bound in jubilance

captivated in a world ablaze

with vivid resplendent delights

it's nothing but a world

of sheer twistedness..!!

Interlude

Wake up to the reality

that you had shunned

while you sojourned

in this dreamy extrinsic

world of alluring mirth

thoughts come n' thoughts go

making you wonder, what to do,

know that these surreal feelings

hold no resolute abiding grounds

with their frugal pretence..!!

Break FREE from this spell

of pseudo illusions n' twistedness

before they deport you

on an highway to hell

boldly leading you NOWHERE

ravaging your life, forever…

FREEDOM is just a thought away

embrace it in its full splendour

rebound back to your realm, your world

ONE that you know is your very own..!!

Moonlight n' ME

Under the vast expanse of the sky ~

stands the MOON, lit in its full ensemble

with the sparkling stars n' sparse dark clouds

dispersed across the endless celestial sphere

reverberating in their glowing luminance

hallmarking a lasting signature mark of its own

soothing the daily drudgery of my cognizance

while I pour my mind, heart n' soul out, akin

and, we have an heartening exchange of thoughts

in an unusual muted, inarticulate conversation

that even in the depth of silence, steers me clear

of all my consternation, qualms n' anxiety

as it lays its calm balm on my wounds, healing me

guiding me above the spiritless day-to-day life

giving me a new high, a sense of freedom above all

into a world of my dreams, hopes n' reverie.

I am enchanted by the moonlight in pure exalt,

in the profound bliss of the elixir that it emanates

which spreads unconditional harmony, love n' bliss

our relation is an un-paralleled lifelong unison

a sinewy bond of feeling ONE, of feeling whole ~

in MIND, SPIRIT n' SOUL..!!

Endless Journey

I heard the voice inside that said ~
"You'll seek what you want in the end"
I thought I then knew what I had to do
So I started traversing on paths anew
on the roads that were less taken
not meant for the crest-fallen
I continued on my stride
even when the winds pried
keepin' my spirits alive
o'er the raging tide
reprising the only voice
that I heard inside
I strode deeper and deeper
determined to reach sooner
I dabbled over my choices
aimed at a central quest
to seek the end n' define the "I"
to sieve the truth from the lie
I continued to wander across the lands
thru' the mystifying n' changing sands
I did this for many many years
letting my hope cast away my fears
but at the twists n' turns of the alley
serendipity paved way for melancholy
as I reached the peak of my journey
my virtues got chained
I saw that the mysteries of nature
were rife with rules insane
the voice that I heard initially
lost clarity n' was strained
at last I realised that all that I sought
'twas all only in my thoughts
for the journey had no end
as there was no end to the road
my pursuit was a tryst
as the end did not exist!!

Never Alone!

I read your thoughts 

in the morn when I first awake

I feel you are with me

in every step that I take

I miss you not being around

from the first breath that I took

but since you stepped in my life

for love I never had to look

The close bond that we have shared

from our first encounter with each other

will take us through the miles

in our journey together

Although we are spread apart

we look at the same sky above

none amidst us is ever alone

we are wrapped as one in our love

Look Ahead

Skies gray bellowing away
Cries echoing at the deep sea
I'm sinking inside me, yet afloat
Worried whether I will be wiped out

In the cold unknown darkness
With no hand guiding me
My own thoughts are swept apart
Shreded to pieces is a lonely heart

But, I think I see a fading light
Is it an illusion, is it a disguise?
I let the light comfort me
Hold me against my waning will

I surge ahead with all my might
I fight against the raging tide
At the risk of being shattered
I ask - backward or forward

I alone must now decide
And -
I decide to look ahead.

For You I'll Always Be here...

When the sun fails to rise and
the darkness continues to stare
Remember then, my dear,
For You I'll Always Be here...

When sleep evades you and
your dreams make you fear
Close your eyes and listen
you will hear my whispers clear

When you feel alone and
your eyes shed a tear
Look within you to find my warmth
and presence that shall seem so near

When the songs you love, halt
and do not play music in your ears
Unlock the doors of your heart to
Set the thoughts free for you to hear

When you think I am gone away
and wish for me here -
Remember one thing, my dear that
For You I'll Always Be here.

ME

Having traversed on different paths

across the different altitudes of LIFE

when I look back, today -

I feel ... 

I was always wrong

O! Why was I not wise?

Why wasn't I strong?

I suffered through the forces 

of my muffled destiny

others always controlled my life

when I strived hardest

it was against my own shadow

and not the rest

I was not ME

I was split in two -

MYSELF, yet not ME !!

I found it impossible

in this realm

to get back to the

wholeness of my youth, my soul

I crossed the great ocean

and yet, I halted 

so close to the shore

when I found myself alone

stripped off all will 

and deplete of all energy

to take me to the other side

At this high tide of my life

with whatever of the real ME

having ebbed away

thoughts came flooding back to me

Into every opening 

of my mind's bay

reinstating time n' again

that I needed SOMEONE as a part of me

but this I think is something that just can't be!

This is ME.

Zendagi Migzara ...

I often go through such moments in my life -

where I turn and look into the face of life 

I try to view an image of what I think is me

and all I see is a damsel - 

with hope as her shield for the dark nights

armed with determination so fierce 

to survive the turbulences in life

and courage to stand for the right

focussed to reach her destination in sight

with beliefs that reflect her sense of pride

And then sudden lava like eruptions that jolt time and space

awaken me to look beyond the reflections of my image

they make me wear out the masks I had worn to hide the real me

to hide my pain, to silence myself when I so much wanted to scream

If forgetting my past was as easy as smiling, I would never cry

I would have moved on with my life and not pondered

over the question marks hanging over my head, nor

would there would I’ve this thought "Why am I alive, I wish I was dead."

If overcoming griefs was as easy as breathing, I would never fear

every rising sun would bring a smile on my face and not a tear

stringing together the broken pieces of my heart, I would look ahead

with all the tears gone, my eyes would’ve no longer looked lost and dead

Be it happiness or sadness, a tear has always been there in my eye

b'coz I still remember the day when shattering time left me high and dry

When I saw for the very first time, a mirage of joy, I just cried

When my dad left me alone, tears rolled out and I then died

Zendagi Migzara a.k.a Life Goes On, is what I am told...

In every human life

there are moments high and low

emotions from every corner, continue to grow

don’t lose heart and go away

to destinations unknown and paths astray

for Life Goes on ...

Is the only L E S S O N all the way.