Belonging to Eternity

all our lives
we are made to believe
that we must live
to earn the goodwill
during our lifetime on earth
for the heavenly
afterlife experience
but it is not how it is
for there exists no time
there is only eternity, and
we are one soul changing forms
in the transient extraction
of timelessness
a combined amalgamation
of mass and energy
with an ad interim memory
moving with the universe
along with it's ever changing paradigms

we exist in the now, and
we exist in the then too!

Dad – My first LOVE, My forever HERO

Dad...
My first LOVE
My forever HERO

be it laughter, happiness
sunshine, rain
without you besides
they never feel the same
my heart is broken
this ain't a lie
all I feel
are the remorseful sighs
wanting to
see you once more
cuddle you with love
hear you call me
touch you somehow

I was the luckiest
to have had
the world's best dad
belong to me
how, I wish this
could be true
for eternity

though the journey is onerous
there is hope guiding the way
that we will meet once again
when I reach the pearly gates

till, then...
I remain confined
in your shrine
while keeping your flame
burning inside mine

Ambiguous Life

What do I express of life, this life

save, it's nothing but an ambiguous life!!

a moment of chaos, a moment of calm,

a moment of roar, a moment of whisper,

a moment of light, a moment of darkness,

a moment of sense, a moment of conflict,

a moment of love, a moment of hate,

a moment of clamor, a moment of silence,

a moment of pleasure, a mment of pain,

a moment of pretence, a moment of reality,

a moment of grotesque, a moment of beauty,

a moment of depression, a moment of hope,

and, so many more contrariness

all stemming from the life ~

birth in this mysterious universe,

where time flows forever like the river

undeterred in its journey n' forever sparkling

bringing in a new facet with it every new day

that changes a part of us; for good or bad

but who's the master to judge, no one knows..??

life moves on and the cycle continues on n' on

till one fine day when death takes you away

to yet another unfamiliar unknown territory

where you rest in peace from this damnation

setting your spirited soul free for eternity

nothing would change after you're dead n' gone

there would be a momentary pause by the loved ones

till they find their grounds n' surge ahead, and

the universe continues its vicious rigmarole

birthing new souls n' taking them through it all

just like how it did with you while you lasted here

such are the vagaries of life, our ambiguous life..!!

Silence

When chaos n’ turmoil are flagrant in my life

n' I momentarily think I can't handle the rife

when tact’s, deeds n' words fail to do the needful

that's when I adopt the SILENCE that's powerful!

In the depth of silence ~

as I embark on the journey deep within

to contemplate over the realm that I live-in

as my musings n' thoughts unfold in my mind

I let them have a free flow, unchaining the binds

my heart, spirit n' soul akin connect as whole

bolstering my conscience, to take full control!

The harder the resolute to seek the answers

with the dauntless tenacity to not give-in

ensure a clean sweep of the cluttered mind

quasi yet real are the choices of this sojourn

now, it's up to me to decide which path to choose!

Silence is not a sign of weakness or loneliness

it's a powerful weapon of souls with fortitude

Silence brings together the elements within me

it has its own energy, substance n' style

Silence, I revere your presence in my life

for condescending me and showing me light!

SILENCE… I bow to thee for eternity..!!

Silence to Resilience..!!

as I pondered in silence...

my life reeled before me

from when I'd my sensibilities

a myriad of collages, replayed

some clear, some cluttered,

yet, somehow they all mattered!

a journey indeed ~

it's been for me...

from innocence to maturity,

melancholy to serendipity,

seen it all, done it all, and

learnt from every climb n' fall

there were the lows n' the highs

ensembled with the worldly sighs!

awed, stricken, diffident n' disdained

every emotion within me has been raked

been a wreck when filled with void

but have also experienced sheer pride

bouncing back has been a pattern of my life

through every crisis, windfall and strife!

destiny's favorite child, that is me ~

I've accepted it now and set myself free

in the depth of silence, I found the key

resilience, it shall be till eternity!

Never at ease

My life's been an expanse of darkness

hurt and agony flowing in boundless

a rampant world, plagued with chaos 

beseeched with voices lacking ethos

as continuing strife, beckoned my life

the vast blackness kept growing inside

as I grew, I lost out on my spark

my will kept fading into the dark

my trapped mind, nobody could see

O! how much I wanted to set it free

I was held up there with nowhere to go

death of a loved one, came as a blow

the innocence, enslaved n' slained

so deeply embedded has been the pain

the fear that lurked deep within

contrived n' usurped my love-in

the uneasiness that set within me

locked my essence for eternity

as the turbulence within refused to cease

I realised I have never been at ease!