Pauses in Life

Is my quest for eternal peace n' my callin'

a surreal boundless semblance of a mirage?

is it only me who fears on what the comin' holds?

moments keep movin' time after time

n' with it the unknown unfolds;

Life is meant to be an ongoing journey,

with every second, hour n' day addin' to it,

then why am I being forced by time to pause?

Did I happen to grow up too fast

or was it destiny that blew me apart?

as tears stream down my face,

I'm forced by time to pause ~

to seek sanity in my solitude,

askin' myself the necessary question,

why do I keep slippin' into a vortex?

when my intentions are always right..!!

With every moment that passes, it dawns,

that this too shall be lost in the bracken,

O! why does it have to reminisce of the past,

where I lost the realm of my childhood innocence,

that I still yearn in every livin' moment to overcome,

the trapped feelin' within n' set free,

the true child woman, the real ME.

Born Again...

in the sandy sparse desert

her life sought a mirage

but that was not how 'twas to be

like the soaked dried leaves

of autumn, her life swept throu'

in the direction of the wind

when it rained, her life

felt like tear drops

pouring from the very

heart of heaven

since the time she was a child

'twas love that she yearned!

for so long...

she was shrouded in darkness

that she did not realize when 'twas

that the light had seeped within

finally ~

she felt intoxicated

intoxicated with life

for the first time ever

she knew then that

she was born again

it felt in her soul

n' it felt clean within

she then embraced her life

for she had realised

that she was free,

n' she was born again...

Lost Innocence

a sparkle, a sunshine, a glowing light,

she came across as a harbringer of life

her spirit, her dreams were her pride

she expressed it all with nothing to hide

tears of hurt often stream down her face

as she remnisces of all that took place

when the child within her left her side

her careless whispers were buried inside

she fought, she cried, she plead, she riled

till all that was her unseemingly died

what they did to her, consumed her soul

her heart fragmented, will never be whole

an epitome of innocence was reduced to ash

such was her destiny that unfolded abashed

Melancholia

She writes often of darkness n' of gloom

it seems in her garden never a flower bloomed

She walks with her smile so full of sunshine

n' regales in mirth e'en when pain inclines

She has been hurt deep, her wound is raw

lone battles she has fought, without thaw

She has tucked away all her dreams somewhere

n' has embraced cold solitude, in despair

She is rooted to ground with her wings unborn

it is not wrong, if she feels lost n' forlorn

She has been mortified, without any fault

in vain have been all her attempts to exalt

Thru' endless years, she's been seeking love

will the heavenly grace on her bestow?

Melancholia it is for now it seems -

wish 'twas untrue, wish 'twas her dream!