Tears

As a tear drops from my eye

I feel the angiush deep inside

as it surges it harkens back in time 

over the carefree moments, now lost

as a strange silence breaks my thoughts

abstract collages clutter my mind

I feel trapped within my own confines

in the reflections of darkness, I repine

I can't stop crying; I let them flow

for my grief stricken heart is hollow

I know something within me has died

that I am feeling empty, I can't hide

I can't count my wounds; they are too many

I need solace but can't find any!!

I don't know what to do; I can't continue;

I don't wanna live; I wish I could die

all I feel is hurt, all I sense is pain

all that's left are my tears that rain!!

Without him...

Life seemed blissful
with my new found love
I thought at last I'd my anchor
n' now I would be safe ashore
walking hand in hand
matching step to step
in the warmth of his love I lived
on his shoulders I careened
I drifted to a new world order
with rosy dreams in splendor
I thought it was all true
that there was life without its rues
till reality jolted me on the inside
when one fine day he left my side
n’ walked away never looking back
without even telling me if he'll comeback!!

I am now feeling empty within
as he has taken my heart n' soul akin
the void he has left cannot be filled
I don’t know now if I will live...

Lost Will

When he said he did not love me anymore
It broke my heart, I could take it no more
He shattered my feelings and left me ashen
He still doesn't know what all he has done

I've lost my will, I've lost my might
I am standing still, I cannot fight!

I realise, all that he said were blatant lies
As tears continuously stream down from my eyes
Yet I hold all of our moments together so tight
As the darkness surrounding me offers no respite

I've lost my will, I've lost my might
I am standing still, I cannot fight!

Embracing solitude when depraved of love
I looked upward towards the sky above
I wondered who's the master controlling my strings?
why life has robbed me off my little things?

I've lost my will, I've lost my might
I am standing still, I cannot fight!

Frozen Love

You! the man of my life
redeemer of my strife
a blessing from above
the soul whom I loved
has now everything destroyed
leaving emptiness and a void

I want to scream and shout
but my words just won't come out
the allegation and accusation
expressed your frustration
the torturous words, hurt
causing tears, that I avert

I thought we were meant for each other
spending the rest of our lives together
but this was not how 'twas meant to be
separate paths were written in our destiny
our footprints, over time will be erased
just like how our memories would fade

we must walk alone now in silence
mulling over our frozen love in obeisance!

Life is calling...

I love the cool breeze
against the silent sea
it makes me feel
as if I am free
my spirits are high
under the blue sky
I do not feel tied down
by the worldly sighs
for once my mind
is not going astray
I feel my troubles
will soon be washed away
I hear my inner voice clear
it's no longer a whisper
my thoughts seem sound
with no conflicts around
I feel content as can be
so blissful is the serenity
this freedom is what
I sought all along
this is the place
to where I belong
I have to set pace
I must not slow down
for my soul is beckoning
n' my Life is calling...

Surreal

I don't know for how long
has darkness surrounded me
time has flown so fast n' now
it all seems like eternity
I look at the waters of the stream
but find no reflection of the real me
demons unleashed; haunt n' tease
as fears move with a lot of ease
trials keep pouring; there's no stopping
they seem to be testing me endlessly
my head is spinning round n' round
my mind is chaotic with all the sounds
at every crossroad, I lose my way
O! will this ever end some day?

I close my eyes n' I see the gleam
a rainbow of lights or so it seems
as life appears on a new canvas
the splendid colors make me anxious
I enjoy every moment I live here
with peace n' bliss that endear
I yearn for this to be true n' real
but, alas! it's my dream n' it's surreal!

Never at ease

My life's been an expanse of darkness

hurt and agony flowing in boundless

a rampant world, plagued with chaos 

beseeched with voices lacking ethos

as continuing strife, beckoned my life

the vast blackness kept growing inside

as I grew, I lost out on my spark

my will kept fading into the dark

my trapped mind, nobody could see

O! how much I wanted to set it free

I was held up there with nowhere to go

death of a loved one, came as a blow

the innocence, enslaved n' slained

so deeply embedded has been the pain

the fear that lurked deep within

contrived n' usurped my love-in

the uneasiness that set within me

locked my essence for eternity

as the turbulence within refused to cease

I realised I have never been at ease!