Lost Realm

I feel at times

I am not me

Who can it be;

If I am not me?

I feel at times

my realm, I seek

If it isn't with me;

Where else can it be?

I feel at times

I wanna break free

Am I so bound;

that I cannot break free?

As I seek to find

what's my true

I walk under skies

gray n' blue

I see, I hear,

I touch, I feel

I sift the unreal

from the real

Boundless and bare

lies my realm there

Where fear is a myth

and hatred a rare

The day I leave

all my pains behind

my true purpose in life

I will surely find

I Forgive You...

Deny as you may, all that you've done

truth is that you left me abandoned

you had your face masked in disguise

your path was laden with betrayal n' lies!

You hurt me lots, you caused me pain

you got my tears all out n' drained

you were the reason for my agony

What you did was indeed blasphemy!

I was trapped inside, I felt numb around

I felt I was shattering without any sound

I wanted to yell, I wanted to cry

I didn't know on whom I could rely!

Yet there was something that was true

I felt deep within that I owed it to you

all the happiness and all the love

God sent you were to me from above!

I've no hard feelings now not any more

havin' shed the baggage, I now feel whole

my anger over time has been assuaged

I will no longer live my life enraged!

I hope you learn from what you've done

I pray you do not do it with anyone

I have finally seen it all through you

Yet...I Forgive you! I Forgive you!

Ethereal Moments

On invisible wings against the winds
I take flight into the heavenly delight
with moments of enchantment adorning life
like the misty hues amidst the hazy white
drawing inspiration from the vast expanse
the universe rejoicing in an eternal dance

Of halos and beauty that is rare
a miracle it is beyond compare
an echelon of stars that are glowing
in a deeper sense of bonding
and a growing sense of love
all woven together, to be held in awe

Should I break this spell or let it be?
Should I fade back into the reality?
No, I love these ethereal moments
they set me free;
I do not want to be ~
pulled out from this reverie!

I will survive...

There are times when I feel its all true
there are times when I feel its all untrue
What is my life all about?
O! how I wish I knew...

I've been living alone in my own world
dreaming of a special someone
yearning for him all the while
this is something I cannot deny

There are no chains yet I feel bound
in some unknown binds that hold me tight
I tread my melancholic life as such
as the way, the day paves for the night

I see the road but it has no end
I see a boat but it has no anchor
So I plunge head on into the seas
to make sense of my destiny

Amongst the waves is where I will now live
Amongst the waves is where I shall die
I need to befriend the storms to survive
the highs and lows of my life!

I feel surrendered, I feel lost

Our love when one was blissful and strong
how then did our relation, go so wrong?
my mind totters as I think of the past
I feel surrendered, I feel lost!

I am engulfed in sheer distress
as days without you seem endless
my heart bleeds as I think of the past
I feel surrendered, I feel lost!

My fate left on me such a deep mark
that I am now scared of the violent dark
my eyes cry as I think of the past
I feel surrendered, I feel lost!

A lot of pain with a lot of sigh
are all that's left, this ain't a lie
my soul dreads as I think of the past
I feel surrendered, I feel lost!

Tears

As a tear drops from my eye

I feel the angiush deep inside

as it surges it harkens back in time 

over the carefree moments, now lost

as a strange silence breaks my thoughts

abstract collages clutter my mind

I feel trapped within my own confines

in the reflections of darkness, I repine

I can't stop crying; I let them flow

for my grief stricken heart is hollow

I know something within me has died

that I am feeling empty, I can't hide

I can't count my wounds; they are too many

I need solace but can't find any!!

I don't know what to do; I can't continue;

I don't wanna live; I wish I could die

all I feel is hurt, all I sense is pain

all that's left are my tears that rain!!

Without him...

Life seemed blissful
with my new found love
I thought at last I'd my anchor
n' now I would be safe ashore
walking hand in hand
matching step to step
in the warmth of his love I lived
on his shoulders I careened
I drifted to a new world order
with rosy dreams in splendor
I thought it was all true
that there was life without its rues
till reality jolted me on the inside
when one fine day he left my side
n’ walked away never looking back
without even telling me if he'll comeback!!

I am now feeling empty within
as he has taken my heart n' soul akin
the void he has left cannot be filled
I don’t know now if I will live...