Antidote

she lay trapped between the sands of time

warped in a shell that was marooned and still

having recently understood the fragility of life

a finding that left her deprived of her will

emotionally detached, she dwelled deep within

to know how it felt beneath her skin

she discovered the tangled remains of her heart

along with a battered body that was ripped apart

having realized that she had given it all

with nothing more left that she could give

stripped off all her energy, she stood bereft

seeking herself a reason to live

metamorphosed by all that was delivered to her

battling the chaos inside and out

in search of calm, she took a new stance

and decided to give her life a second chance

eager to rise from the shadows of the dark
onward she marched on the journey she had embarked
floating across celestial time and space
trying to figure out she belonged to which place

she immersed in deep seas of emotions
reaching depths untouched before
searching hard all the while
for an antidote for her parched soul

Slow down, Amma...

I know Amma, I know that you are stressed

give me sometime to clear all the mess

I know Amma, you've toiled a long while now

leave it to me, to now pull the plow!

Slow down, Amma, you need to rest

Do you even remember when last you lived in zest?

Slow down, Amma, life has been a bitch

we can't help for that's what the premise of life is!

Hear me, Amma, you need sometime for yourself

enough of all the sacrifices, strain n' duress

Hear me, Amma, I want you to live your life

live every moment by your code and enjoy the ride!

In the quest of surviving in the realm, we are in

I focussed on the outset to bring the monies in

little did I realize that time would not wait, and

I've lost most of them now, it's a little too late!

Off whatever is left, I want to give them all to you

let's let our hair loose and get into the groove!

Spend some time with me, Amma

we have so much to talk 

everything else can wait
but this cannot

let's banter, let's chat, or,

in your garden, let's just squat

sing, dance, walk, shop n' hop

let the merriment go on non-stop

the memories that we create, today,

we will cherish forever

along with the umbilical love

that has connected us together!

I wanna get lost...

I wanna get lost from my life 

for sometime...

just sit on the side, and 

watch the world go by...

I need some breathing space

it's been too hard on me, off late

I wanna collect myself, and

relook at my fate

it can't go on like this

I have to set things straight..!!

I wanna see life from an observer's eye

for so many questions in my life 

have been unanswered, and

I don't understand why..?!

the mystics of the realm 

that I live-in

leave me spell bound 

and shocked akin

it has been quite sometime

since my head's been on a spin

I want them all to stop now

for I am feeling weighed-in..!!

I don't see how else can I

regain the control on my steer

if I don't understand

what led me here...

the only way out 

is for me to get lost

so, I wanna get lost,

I, just, wanna get lost...

Reflections by the Moonlight

as I sat by the banks of the river
under the vivid moonlight;
I saw different reflections of me
the first being the person who I had become
others, a reflect of who I wanted to be
and the rest, a reflect of the soul within me
what was real? the person whom I saw, or
a direct reflection of my soul..??!!

why did it take the moonlight reflection
to unveil this reality of life, to me
was I living in denial all along?
under the resplendent moonlight
that engulfed everything around me
I saw the distinctive profiles within ME
stretched across and over the shore line,
in bits n' pieces, which left me pondering ~
how many different lives was I living?

trapped between the wants, illusions n' reality
I was torn between them like never before
a reflect here, a reflect there, a reflect everywhere
I wanted all of them...
to be united as ONE in entirety
as it was these pieces of reflection
which when coalesced, reflected in true essence
the person, the soul that was the real ME..!!

UnBelonged

dislocated within
she did not know, whether
she was fighting it all
or giving in
to the warped time
that had shrouded her
powerless, emotionless
she did not know, whether
it should have mattered at all
or have been overlooked upon
as all that had happened
had wrecked her heart
and numbed her mind
the endless tirade
had rummaged her bind
she could no longer relate
with the world around
she felt misplaced here
she felt UnBelonged..!!

Little Girl

as she slowly wiped the tears 

streaming down her eyes

she looked in the mirror

but could not recognize 

as who she was seeing

was someone she did not identify

dead eyes, lost smile, and

an expression that was dauntingly cold 

loudly she wondered, 

"What did her life, today, behold?"

where was the little girl

who knew who she wanted to become

why had she let life take its toll

and become "Who she had become?"

there were no answers 

to her who, what, when and why

she knew she had to do something 

to get back the spirit of her life

she knelt down to collect

a fistful of golden sand

that gleamed like hope

in the centre of her hand

she took a deep breath, and 

softly whispered to the Universe

I am blowing away the miseries

and the shackles binding me

let me be the little girl I was

let me be the spirited ME..!!