Reflections of My Soul

I lived all my life in pursuit of understanding

the true calling of the real ME

that would define the "I" in me

n' prepare myself for it's sojourn

at whichever point of life, I would discover it.

I used to think of this ~

as a journey within a journey

which had lessons to unlearn n' learn anew

a sojourn with it's own set of ~

trials n' tribulations, simplicity n' complexity,

temptation n' abstinence, a different world order

that would be my transcendence to my independence.

Interlude.

Today ~

a sudden transformation swayed thru' me

as I was enjoying the subtle pleasures

of a calm, breezy, dark, star n' moonlit sky

it began with a discerning feeling of

emptiness and nothingness within

as if layers of dust from the past

buried over time had been vacuumed

in one sweep motion by a gust of wind

n' I stood there experiencing a never before

felt sense of liberation from all around me

as I closed my eyes, I felt time pause

n' I saw a glowing light dawn within

to show me the crystal clear reflection

of my own pristine soul, even if for a moment
I saw it was free, spirited n' ‘twas untouched
floating in the mirth of sublime love in its realm
just like the way, I always felt it would be..!!

Intoxicated n' content with this new found peace in my life
after being thru' such blissful serene moments
intending to preserve this savoir-faire within me, forever
I already sense the evolution of a new ME...

Numbness

in the depth of besieged unusual silence

all she was aware was of her "existence"

that she was alive, that she was breathin'

when everythin' around her was collapsin'

all she saw was an endless tunnel ahead

with perpetual blackness widespread

undesired, was such a soulless journey

that made her life rampant with drudgery

her mind over time had turned out to be stoic

akin to her once carefree life that was now rustic

her lovin' heart had become unyieldingly cold

for her endurance had reached its set threshold

she seemed to be overpowered n' engulfed

with a strange profound feelin' of numbness

such sinewy, gritty n' scary was it's grasp

that she let it crush n' shatter her from inside

will she thwart this peril that's breakin' her apart?

will she let her emotions gain ingress into her heart?

will this eerie numbness destroy her pristine soul?

will she bounce back once more to be her spirited whole?