The Game of Wanting

 What I want... slips from reach,
A ghost in the dark, a word out of speech.
I stretch out my hands, but all I find,
A space filled with longing, a restless mind.

What I have... I don’t crave,
Leftovers from battles I didn’t save.
They gather dust on a crowded shelf,
Fragments of a life that’s not myself.

What I seek... hides away,
A treasure buried, led astray.
Maps I’ve followed that fade to mist,
Paths that twist and then don’t exist.

What I found... I can’t face,
Truths too sharp, too full of grace.
They cut like glass, they burn like fire,
Testing the edge of my heart’s desire.

What I’ve endured... I didn’t deserve,
Echoes of choices that dip and swerve.
Lessons etched in scars and lines,
Worn through years and stolen time.

How much more elusive, will life dare to be?
A riddle of shadows, never set free.
I’m caught in the chase, in the wanting’s snare,
As life holds its secrets, just out of air.

Bridging the time

As she looked back at the bygones

she felt trapped in a predicament ~

should she have handled it differently

and not missed certain opportunities

that she did due to her shaken will

but, then better sense prevailed

during days of solitude when she

introspected and it dawned on her that

its these very incidents that

shaped her to become who she is today ~

a truly spirited strong woman

who always holds up her head high

no matter, what life brings on to her

she, also, realized that if she

wasted her time asking "Why me"?

she would forever remain rooted at ground zero

with her soul constantly egging her to move on

she did so by taking the path less known

leaving behind indelible imprints of her own

in the sands of time inscribing that

no matter what the seasons of life bring

she would never change from the inside

keeping her I, Me n' Myself intact..!!

I love to stay the way I am..!!

If I am the traditional conservative woman,

I am the cynosure of all social eyes;

If I live within the dogma's of this world,

I am the most sought after ideal woman;

If I abstain from all form of indulgences,

I am the one who's had the right upbringing;

But, I say ~

To hell with all these mediocre boundaries

that prevent me from being the one "I AM"!!

When I call a spade a spade in my talks

they call me an arrogant ruthless soul

when in truth it is they who cannot

deal with reality and face it as it is!!

When I live my life on my own rules n' terms

they say she abstains from the social norms

when in truth it is they who're hooked onto

the subservient n' refuse to move on in life!!

I am not one to justify myself

to strangers n' close ones akin;

I love to stay the way I am

and, I do not care a damn..!!

I dont know ...

I dont know, why I feel this -
But, it often comes to my mind,
That life is a search for...
A treasure of some kind.

I dont know, if I am right -
In saying this to thee,
But be grateful to thy Alma Mater,
Wherever you may be.

I dont know, how should I express -
But, this is all I can say,
That LOVE is the element...
Which protects you in every way.

I dont know, why I feel this -
But, it often comes to my mind,
That happiness lies within you...
You only have to find.

Moments Of Life

many moments in my life
passed through by
some were told,
many remained untold
season after season
one after one they
never remained still
and continued to grow

they are a part of me
these moments of my life
they transcend space and time
and stand unified yet diverse
in their very nature
leaving pearls of wisdom
as their footprints
strung to each other
tracing my journey of life

seasons change but
they continue to flow
I reach out to them
to know more and more
to be able to sift
the surreal from the whole
as these passing moments
embellish and kinder my soul
I am eager to reach to
the other end of the shore

not a day not an hour
not a second is spared
the canvas holds in it
every color of life
like the meadows that
are lively and wild
painted vividly by
the hands of the unseen
a picture that reveals
the story that's -
I, ME & MY LIFE.