Tabula Rasa

Memories vivid yet distant
of how colors turned gray
in the contours
of her convoluted mind
over the years
it seemed like
there could be nothing more
to the black hole like darkness
that was shrouding her vision
gripping her imagery
she sat there lost
in the qualms
of her fragmented life

Interlude

She could not
let this continue
it had to stop
for she was breathing
she was alive, and
deep within she knew
it was temporal
she had to move on
in life

Interlude

She woke up one day
set her slate clean
like the tabula rasa, and
edged forward
propelled with hope
towards the horizon
ready to create
new imprints
of the rest of her life

One more TIME...

she saw opportunity 

when others saw nothing

for her the impossible 

didn't exist

she took the risks 

she survived the falls

an epitome of verve

encapsulated it all

till...

an extended phase of darkness

engulfed her for so long

she was distraught

she was torn

embracing solitude 

she withdrew her wings

stoned into numbness

standing still

till...

one fine night

when she was communing 

she realized that not all was over

that there was something inside her

that held her fragile self

from disintegrating altogether

she decided to give-in her all

one more time

she wanted to face life 

with tough resolve

one last time

as if on cue

her spirit soared

she felt hopeful once more

softly, she whispered

Oh! Universe, please conspire

help me tide this over...

Fragmented

fragmented mind filled with

fragmented thoughts

fragmented feelings in a 

fragmented heart

fragmented darkness streaked with

fragmented white

O! what do I make of this

fragmented life..?!

WORDS

WORDS - an assembly of letters
that we write, speak n' read!

As a fragmented self they mean nothing 
but as a clique they have the power 
to make or mar one's life 
they can usher you into bright light
or throw you in a vortex of dark
they can encourage you to see the real
or discourage you by showing the surreal
they can express love or instigate hate
they can make you dance, sing or cry
for once they are formed n' delivered
you cannot reject or deny them
such is their power and influence!


How do we use them, then ~
discreetly, judiciously, prudently?
the onus of the choice lies only on us
for as we all know, how a cluster of WORDS
can shape our life from time to time!

Midnight Sun

It may be night; it may be dark,

it doesn't make any difference

for there is the midnight sun ~

spreading it's light n' glare

in the sky, in its signature style

a natural phenomena of the universe

in the polar region n' around

that unifies the day n' night

even when the day is gone

illustrating yet another wonder

of this mystical marvellous nature..!!

In the dark confines of our lives

we feel lost n' seek light;

why then do we abhor n' feel unnerved

by not understanding the Spirit's motive

in creating for us, a bright midnight sun

to unveil the hidden secrets of our lives

driving away the darkness for a brief period,

for us to behold this peaceful treasure

that we sought all along but never realize

when it is given unto us in our sojourn

in the land of the Midnight Sun..!!

This too shall pass..!!

Today, no matter how heavy her heart is

wavering n' shattering to smithereens within

she tries her best to hold herself together,

even if she has to put on a binding layer!

With her world crashing on her on the outside

forcing her to walk the dangerous thin line

she tries to remain as resilient as she can be

clinging to hope n' preserving her integrity!

In this very turbulent phase of her life

when its exacting to endure her living present

she strives hard to fight back the dark nights

no matter how cold n' bleak the outcome seems!

It's the belief that she keeps reinstating

within her that what she is doing is true

with faith that everything will fade away

gradually n' her life will be alright very soon!

At this very crossroad of her life ~

if she is able to take the decision she has to

in the midst of the realm that she's in

she will embark on the path that she's got to!

She just has to keep moving on n' on, holding

together the whole of her unified as ONE

knowing that the darkness shall pave way to light

and, that "This too shall pass away..!!".

AMEN

Tears

As a tear drops from my eye

I feel the angiush deep inside

as it surges it harkens back in time 

over the carefree moments, now lost

as a strange silence breaks my thoughts

abstract collages clutter my mind

I feel trapped within my own confines

in the reflections of darkness, I repine

I can't stop crying; I let them flow

for my grief stricken heart is hollow

I know something within me has died

that I am feeling empty, I can't hide

I can't count my wounds; they are too many

I need solace but can't find any!!

I don't know what to do; I can't continue;

I don't wanna live; I wish I could die

all I feel is hurt, all I sense is pain

all that's left are my tears that rain!!

Lost Will

When he said he did not love me anymore
It broke my heart, I could take it no more
He shattered my feelings and left me ashen
He still doesn't know what all he has done

I've lost my will, I've lost my might
I am standing still, I cannot fight!

I realise, all that he said were blatant lies
As tears continuously stream down from my eyes
Yet I hold all of our moments together so tight
As the darkness surrounding me offers no respite

I've lost my will, I've lost my might
I am standing still, I cannot fight!

Embracing solitude when depraved of love
I looked upward towards the sky above
I wondered who's the master controlling my strings?
why life has robbed me off my little things?

I've lost my will, I've lost my might
I am standing still, I cannot fight!

Surreal

I don't know for how long
has darkness surrounded me
time has flown so fast n' now
it all seems like eternity
I look at the waters of the stream
but find no reflection of the real me
demons unleashed; haunt n' tease
as fears move with a lot of ease
trials keep pouring; there's no stopping
they seem to be testing me endlessly
my head is spinning round n' round
my mind is chaotic with all the sounds
at every crossroad, I lose my way
O! will this ever end some day?

I close my eyes n' I see the gleam
a rainbow of lights or so it seems
as life appears on a new canvas
the splendid colors make me anxious
I enjoy every moment I live here
with peace n' bliss that endear
I yearn for this to be true n' real
but, alas! it's my dream n' it's surreal!

Look Ahead

Skies gray bellowing away
Cries echoing at the deep sea
I'm sinking inside me, yet afloat
Worried whether I will be wiped out

In the cold unknown darkness
With no hand guiding me
My own thoughts are swept apart
Shreded to pieces is a lonely heart

But, I think I see a fading light
Is it an illusion, is it a disguise?
I let the light comfort me
Hold me against my waning will

I surge ahead with all my might
I fight against the raging tide
At the risk of being shattered
I ask - backward or forward

I alone must now decide
And -
I decide to look ahead.

For You I'll Always Be here...

When the sun fails to rise and
the darkness continues to stare
Remember then, my dear,
For You I'll Always Be here...

When sleep evades you and
your dreams make you fear
Close your eyes and listen
you will hear my whispers clear

When you feel alone and
your eyes shed a tear
Look within you to find my warmth
and presence that shall seem so near

When the songs you love, halt
and do not play music in your ears
Unlock the doors of your heart to
Set the thoughts free for you to hear

When you think I am gone away
and wish for me here -
Remember one thing, my dear that
For You I'll Always Be here.