Nostalgia

here I am
and, there
wondering...

over the moments of yonder
intersected in mind
that bring back memories
some making sense
some irrelevant
learnings, unlearnt
that were relearnt
as the journey
stumbled through
it's twists and turns
as new souls connected
and, loved ones died
emotions crocheted
into a beguiled mesh
creating a mystical story
of a heart and mind
that has bled with tears
blossomed in love, and
basked in the glory of the light

here I am
and, there...

LIVE

It's all weird

the silence

the tears

the smile

the words

the heart

Life...

but

it is also true

that this is

how it is

and

there are no

two ways to it

either

hate it

sulk, and

perish

or

like it

enjoy, and

LIVE..!!

Little Girl

as she slowly wiped the tears 

streaming down her eyes

she looked in the mirror

but could not recognize 

as who she was seeing

was someone she did not identify

dead eyes, lost smile, and

an expression that was dauntingly cold 

loudly she wondered, 

"What did her life, today, behold?"

where was the little girl

who knew who she wanted to become

why had she let life take its toll

and become "Who she had become?"

there were no answers 

to her who, what, when and why

she knew she had to do something 

to get back the spirit of her life

she knelt down to collect

a fistful of golden sand

that gleamed like hope

in the centre of her hand

she took a deep breath, and 

softly whispered to the Universe

I am blowing away the miseries

and the shackles binding me

let me be the little girl I was

let me be the spirited ME..!!

Memories

Time after time; moment after moment
life ages away forming memories
of everything passing by relentlessly
be it the good, bad or the in-betweens
all are packaged as they occur
to last forever but as time flies 
some do fade while some remain 
vividly clear n' close to heart
ushering in smiles n' gleams of joy
as others unleash in the form of tears
when you reminisce them as you walk down 
on a trip in your memory lane
reflecting on the yonder of your past
thousands of memories spanning
your lifetime of how you've lived 
your life with all its non-rhythmicity
coalesced with splendor n' struggle akin!

Life is a collage of all such moments 
moments that become memories
memories that act as anchors
defining the "YOU" in you
as you tread towards the pearly gates!

Soul Search

Masking the embitterment
that was ripping 
my heart apart
beyond any cognizance
of all that I thought
I was and I was not.

I was existing, and
yet not existing
perplexed with the ongoings
in which I was being consumed
when all I wanted was 
to be left alone.

Inveigled actions around
where overwhelming me
in a pool of emotions
that hurt and bled
till there was
nothing left.

Why O' Why..??
was I getting trappped as such
when all I sought was
the definition of "I"
to understand what comprehended
the soul of my life.

Blood, sweat, tears, toil
I gave it my all
till I finally 
found the answers 
of what my soul sought, and
I felt serenity like never before.

Tears

As a tear drops from my eye

I feel the angiush deep inside

as it surges it harkens back in time 

over the carefree moments, now lost

as a strange silence breaks my thoughts

abstract collages clutter my mind

I feel trapped within my own confines

in the reflections of darkness, I repine

I can't stop crying; I let them flow

for my grief stricken heart is hollow

I know something within me has died

that I am feeling empty, I can't hide

I can't count my wounds; they are too many

I need solace but can't find any!!

I don't know what to do; I can't continue;

I don't wanna live; I wish I could die

all I feel is hurt, all I sense is pain

all that's left are my tears that rain!!

Lost Will

When he said he did not love me anymore
It broke my heart, I could take it no more
He shattered my feelings and left me ashen
He still doesn't know what all he has done

I've lost my will, I've lost my might
I am standing still, I cannot fight!

I realise, all that he said were blatant lies
As tears continuously stream down from my eyes
Yet I hold all of our moments together so tight
As the darkness surrounding me offers no respite

I've lost my will, I've lost my might
I am standing still, I cannot fight!

Embracing solitude when depraved of love
I looked upward towards the sky above
I wondered who's the master controlling my strings?
why life has robbed me off my little things?

I've lost my will, I've lost my might
I am standing still, I cannot fight!

Frozen Love

You! the man of my life
redeemer of my strife
a blessing from above
the soul whom I loved
has now everything destroyed
leaving emptiness and a void

I want to scream and shout
but my words just won't come out
the allegation and accusation
expressed your frustration
the torturous words, hurt
causing tears, that I avert

I thought we were meant for each other
spending the rest of our lives together
but this was not how 'twas meant to be
separate paths were written in our destiny
our footprints, over time will be erased
just like how our memories would fade

we must walk alone now in silence
mulling over our frozen love in obeisance!