Fractured Echoes

In the depths of darkness, a heart laid bare,
bound by ties that cut, unaware.
In the toxic dance of bloodline's art,
a fractured soul, a shattered heart.

Through the corridors of silent pain,
familiar echoes, a haunting refrain.
In the wreckage of familial ties,
a spirit lingers, where sorrow lies.

Yet, in the abyss, a glimmer faint,
a plea for solace, a whispered paint.
For resilience, now a distant dream,
lost in the shadows of a fractured seam.

Venture to Nature

As she ventured towards nature ~

she sauntered towards the prying fires

whose mystique flames raptured her abound

she whispered songs of lore in the air

even amidst the dissonance of sound

she immersed herself in the clear blue waters

floating in the streams, without being downed

she looked up at the celestial ether

where the natural paradise held her spellbound

she felt beneath her feet, the bountiful earth

that spread its subtle fragrance all around!!

After traipsing amongst the elements of nature;

she realized that the pain she felt within

would consume her, only, if she sanctioned it

she learnt that instead of letting her loneliness

fluster her, she should seek solace in it

she, also, understood that sunrise and sunset

where a part of everybody's life

and every passing moment was a new moment

that held open endless possibilities

to know the unknowns and tread the unexplored paths!!

In essence ~

What she needed was only a venture to nature

to resurrect her broken will and shaken confidence

and, set free her mind, heart and soul

to live life anew with renewed spirit and zest 

without being affected by the past and the rest!!

Emerging Stronger

I am emerging from a black hole
that's almost consumed me whole
it's been a painful journey for me
I am uncertain of what's in the anvil
let alone know how will I tackle it!

Being a compassionate benevolent
I let the happenings around me
destroy me little by little, over time
and eventually cut me to the core
without letting the other's know
of all the affliction I was going thru'
that broke my heart n' shattered my mind
the ordeal and the emotional mayhem
devastated me further, letting me sink in
deeper till I held on just in time, and
paused long enough to stop my free fall!

I have to end these depths of despair, and
the problems in my life must be absolved
for I don't want to feel this pain ever again
that has power enough to erode my soul
I need to emerge into a new life, now
with renewed fortitude n' vigour
akin to the mighty phoenix, and
stamp out all the negativities in flames
and take flight to my real realm
stronger than ever before, and
I alone can do it for its MY LIFE
and I need to get a handle on it!

Intoxicating Blues..

a poignant precedent reality

that had left its share of scars on me

deterred me and made me more vulnerable

such that I was devastated in the apocalypse

that shred all the anchors that I held onto!

Within the realm of my present life

I did all that I could to handle the crisis

and there was nothing else that I could do

yet, they continued assaulting my soul

offering me no temporal respite to bounce back

so, this time I responded with a killer silence

as I could take in no more of the pain

the hurt had reached the set thresholds

n' I seemed to have surpassed them all!

Today, I've reached that state of mind

where I have started thinking out aloud

as my heart is ruptured with the ongoing

wishing hard for something or someone

to come n' calm my troubled self, and

drive all the intoxicating blues away..!!

Transient Thoughts...

Transient thoughts

breeze through the mind

with the cold frigid air

brushing across my face

calming my unquiet mind

whispering in my heart

ephemeral emotions of

love, hate, solitude, hope

blending them together

leaving my heart unsteady

frangible n' vulnerable..!!

The dusk to dawn theory

doesn't fit in, somehow

for each day browbeats

the yesterday creating mayhem

n' flits away with a

promise of a better tomorrow

Where then is the today

if it is caught in transition

between both these days..?!

Is it all a fabrication

of an over active mind

or, maybe a simply fictitious

affair with nothing as such

but the yearning of the heart

to seek solace, bliss n' love

in the midst of

chaos n’ profound pain

if not true, then

WHAT IS IT..??

Ambiguous Life

What do I express of life, this life

save, it's nothing but an ambiguous life!!

a moment of chaos, a moment of calm,

a moment of roar, a moment of whisper,

a moment of light, a moment of darkness,

a moment of sense, a moment of conflict,

a moment of love, a moment of hate,

a moment of clamor, a moment of silence,

a moment of pleasure, a mment of pain,

a moment of pretence, a moment of reality,

a moment of grotesque, a moment of beauty,

a moment of depression, a moment of hope,

and, so many more contrariness

all stemming from the life ~

birth in this mysterious universe,

where time flows forever like the river

undeterred in its journey n' forever sparkling

bringing in a new facet with it every new day

that changes a part of us; for good or bad

but who's the master to judge, no one knows..??

life moves on and the cycle continues on n' on

till one fine day when death takes you away

to yet another unfamiliar unknown territory

where you rest in peace from this damnation

setting your spirited soul free for eternity

nothing would change after you're dead n' gone

there would be a momentary pause by the loved ones

till they find their grounds n' surge ahead, and

the universe continues its vicious rigmarole

birthing new souls n' taking them through it all

just like how it did with you while you lasted here

such are the vagaries of life, our ambiguous life..!!

Emotional Scars

scars get inflicted in all walks of life
while some are external n' heal with time
it's the emotional ones that leave their mark
n' remain etched, dark n' deep in our minds!

these scars're hidden n' do not 've any visible form
torn, deranged n' fragmented are how they exist
they're caused when the heart is pierced n' bleeds
for the free flow of mental trauma refuses to cease!

a surge of emotions wreath around such scars
making one a wreck trapped within oneself
faltering faith, broken heart, shattered hopes
depression envelopes as they erupt like tropes!

emotional scars are scathed within n' do not show
akin to the deep wounds that do not heal
it's seldom that one can really feel n' see
what the one with the emotional pain deeply feels!

Tears

As a tear drops from my eye

I feel the angiush deep inside

as it surges it harkens back in time 

over the carefree moments, now lost

as a strange silence breaks my thoughts

abstract collages clutter my mind

I feel trapped within my own confines

in the reflections of darkness, I repine

I can't stop crying; I let them flow

for my grief stricken heart is hollow

I know something within me has died

that I am feeling empty, I can't hide

I can't count my wounds; they are too many

I need solace but can't find any!!

I don't know what to do; I can't continue;

I don't wanna live; I wish I could die

all I feel is hurt, all I sense is pain

all that's left are my tears that rain!!

Reflection

I look into 

my reflection

n' what do I see

a moving soul

caught in

festered life

chaste innocence

trapped in a

labyrinth mind

of strewn emotions

n' sodden eyes

that reflect pain

I look at her again

n' all I see

is a damsel in distress

calling out for help

to be freed from

captivity of 

her traumatic past

to be the one 

that she wants to be

the real child-woman

that she is

I know by now

that what I see

is not an illusion 

it is me

yet, it can't be true

but it is

n' there is 

no escape

for it is

the reflection 

of my face

Solitude

quiet yet unquiet was how it began
n' then the turbulence took over my mind
I felt restrained within my own confines
unable to think, unable to move
I stood rooted at ground zero
with the shackles of loneliness
caving in on me, o! how much -
I longed for a glimpse of mirage
but I kept falling in the menacing dark
'twas like a free fall from mind to heart
with nothing to say or hear about
unrequited love anguishing my soul
tears contriving to trap my mind
fetters of fear making me cold
with pain so devastatingly intense
in the frame of a tacitly recluse soul
reprising the footprint impressions
clamoring over the times bygone
wanting to embrace the eternal flame
reprieving till then in solitude realm!!