disconnect-to-reconnect

when the thoughts frighten and become fears
disconnect-to-reconnect

when the emotions overwhelm and become tears
disconnect-to-reconnect

when the grays darken and become blues
disconnect-to-reconnect

when the highs spiral and become lows
disconnect-to-reconnect

at every twist and every turn
when trials cause you heartburn
when the heart becomes indecisive
and, answers are all you seek

disconnect from your realm
reconnect with your soul 

your mind will feel empowered
and, your faith will be restored

Emotions

she smiled

when all she wanted

to do was cry

she felt the storm

that was raging on her inside

years of pent-up emotions

that were stifled-in

had become fluid

and were overflowing

this surge, this force

emptied her of all feelings

and, she let it be

for

it was TIME

to discard all pretences

inhibitions, negativity

that weighed her down

and let the white LIGHT

with it's serene halo

seep in, envelop and protect her

in her journey from hereon...

Antidote

she lay trapped between the sands of time

warped in a shell that was marooned and still

having recently understood the fragility of life

a finding that left her deprived of her will

emotionally detached, she dwelled deep within

to know how it felt beneath her skin

she discovered the tangled remains of her heart

along with a battered body that was ripped apart

having realized that she had given it all

with nothing more left that she could give

stripped off all her energy, she stood bereft

seeking herself a reason to live

metamorphosed by all that was delivered to her

battling the chaos inside and out

in search of calm, she took a new stance

and decided to give her life a second chance

eager to rise from the shadows of the dark
onward she marched on the journey she had embarked
floating across celestial time and space
trying to figure out she belonged to which place

she immersed in deep seas of emotions
reaching depths untouched before
searching hard all the while
for an antidote for her parched soul

Leap of Faith

She was knocked down, she was hurt,
she paused, she withdrew into a shell
it seemed a point of no return for her
she thought she was giving in, finally
but the spirit of her soul kept beckoning
her to bounce back, for surrendering
to the obstacles in her life was not her
she had seen far too many n' survived all
yet, she had reached a point of deep stillness
within her n' it is in this phase of her life
that she found her spark being re-ignited
though she was rooted at ground zero,  
she had no option but to write a new script
to return to the realm that she lived-in
as she surmised her past, present n' future
she understood she had to "Let Go" n' "Move On"
she, further realized that there was something
greater beyond in life's offing's, and
she had to experience them all before she reached 
"THE END" page of her book that held within it 
her journey of life of Ah Wells..!! n' What If's..?!
she stopped trying to bridge the gulf between 
her emotions and the circumstances of her life
and firmly decided to take the LEAP OF FAITH 
it was risky with an uncertain outcome, but
she was prepared to accept whatever be the result
this coming to terms was victory enough for her
she believed the universe would now be with her 
and conspire n' guide her on her renewed journey
exhilarating her soul in mirth n' letting her know
that she was looked upon n' would be taken care of
its with her this firm belief in the LEAP OF FAITH 
that she decided to live her life to the fullest 
from now on with sheer zest, love n' happiness!!

A Journey called Life

Life is a journey to be lived for
and not a destination to be reached
it begins the day you were born
and ends when you breathe your last
it is - short, mysterious n' exacting, but
we only get to make this journey once
so, its unto us to make the most of it..!!

Its a journey of thousand miles
that you begin with one step, and,
then you just keep surging ahead
never looking back, come what may
for you're never going to go that way
you'll travel across lands, rivers, deserts, 
valleys and a myriad of earth's dwellings
where your heart n' thoughts take you
you'll live amongst people, understand them
learn how few stand by you no matter what
and the plenty others conveniently disappear
your emotions n' feelings will all be raked
for you to experience each one of them
you'll have your highs juxtaposed with the lows
its a part of life where everything happens 
for a reason is what we are told, but
how long do you wait for the reasons to unfold
till you draw your own inferences no one knows
as you travel through times n' tides
you'll have choices aplenty enroute
make wise decisions, for time isn't at your will
its unto you to imbue the best n' worst
of it all that this journey offers, and
create memories black o' white n' colorful 
for that's all the imprints you'll leave behind
when this journey would've ended making you - YOU
before your body is set to pyre, and 
your ashes get sprinkled across the sacred ganges..!!

My Life - My Way

Some say...

Life is a journey, and

not a destination!

Others say...

Life is a book where you need to turn

to a new page to forge ahead!

Rest say...

Life is what we make it,

always has been, always will be!

But, what is Life?

Moments of time clustered together, and

credited to your name for you to live them

to the fullest in this realm n' this lifetime

where you observe, pause, unlearn n' learn anew

as you traverse thru' this journey set for you!

Life offers no controls of ~

Pause, Rewind, Play n' Stop

to get a handle on Life!

What's done is done n' cannot be undone

for it's deeply frozen in time!

So, what do you do..??

You make the most of whatever you know, and

move on  thru' every tide, high n' low, and

thru' every crisis, labyrinths and windfall

juxtaposed with a gamut of sensitizing emotions

till its time for you to rest in your grave

which symbolizes THE END of your journey

with your memorable lifetime, and while you're at it

make sure you say, Oh Holy! What a journey, it’s been!

As for me being on the same plateau ~

Having known n' understood whatever I've known

at this point n' time in my life, I admit…

"Yes, I've made lots of mistakes in my Life

for Life never came with a User's Manual for ME"!!

So, I shall always live... 'My Life - My Way'!!

Soul Search

Masking the embitterment
that was ripping 
my heart apart
beyond any cognizance
of all that I thought
I was and I was not.

I was existing, and
yet not existing
perplexed with the ongoings
in which I was being consumed
when all I wanted was 
to be left alone.

Inveigled actions around
where overwhelming me
in a pool of emotions
that hurt and bled
till there was
nothing left.

Why O' Why..??
was I getting trappped as such
when all I sought was
the definition of "I"
to understand what comprehended
the soul of my life.

Blood, sweat, tears, toil
I gave it my all
till I finally 
found the answers 
of what my soul sought, and
I felt serenity like never before.

Silence to Resilience..!!

as I pondered in silence...

my life reeled before me

from when I'd my sensibilities

a myriad of collages, replayed

some clear, some cluttered,

yet, somehow they all mattered!

a journey indeed ~

it's been for me...

from innocence to maturity,

melancholy to serendipity,

seen it all, done it all, and

learnt from every climb n' fall

there were the lows n' the highs

ensembled with the worldly sighs!

awed, stricken, diffident n' disdained

every emotion within me has been raked

been a wreck when filled with void

but have also experienced sheer pride

bouncing back has been a pattern of my life

through every crisis, windfall and strife!

destiny's favorite child, that is me ~

I've accepted it now and set myself free

in the depth of silence, I found the key

resilience, it shall be till eternity!

feeling low

my head's spinning around 

with a whirlwind of memories

my spirits seem to have sunken down

devoid n' deplete of all energies

I want these moments to be lost in time

like the tears in the rain

O! how I wish I could experience peace

without embracing the pains

I want to escape from this abyss

but I don't know where to go

I want to tide over these emotions

but I don't know what to do

I am feeling low is all I know

my heart is feeling blue!

Stranger Somewhere, Nobody Nowhere!!

It feels so lonely within -
having none to share my emotions
and none to share my feelings!!

Life's never been a bed of roses,
it's been laden with thorns,
Fond memories to cherish forever,
have only become forlorn;
E'en the sound of music of Life -
seems to have lost out on its voice,
with so much gloom cast around,
there's just no reason to rejoice.

People of the world passed around
having walked right across my soul,
Taking in what they wanted from me -
being extra menacingly cold;
Oblivious of the hurt, they had
caused to this lonely heart,
Unknown of the pain undergone,
in the dark mysterious past.

Ebbing away off the power,
to overcome strife,
looking beyond the horizons
of this solitude Life;
Unfazed with the thought -
of embracing death,
I readied to tread myself
on the road of perdition.
Like a Stranger Somehwere...
a Nobody Nowhere!!

Elm of LIFE

Life is a rigmarole
of smiles n' tears, jeers n' fears,
encompassed in an ocean
of emotions where -
there is no one to augur
of what's to come, but
the only truth obvious
is the inevitable death.

This is THE ELM OF LIFE!!

Zendagi Migzara ...

I often go through such moments in my life -

where I turn and look into the face of life 

I try to view an image of what I think is me

and all I see is a damsel - 

with hope as her shield for the dark nights

armed with determination so fierce 

to survive the turbulences in life

and courage to stand for the right

focussed to reach her destination in sight

with beliefs that reflect her sense of pride

And then sudden lava like eruptions that jolt time and space

awaken me to look beyond the reflections of my image

they make me wear out the masks I had worn to hide the real me

to hide my pain, to silence myself when I so much wanted to scream

If forgetting my past was as easy as smiling, I would never cry

I would have moved on with my life and not pondered

over the question marks hanging over my head, nor

would there would I’ve this thought "Why am I alive, I wish I was dead."

If overcoming griefs was as easy as breathing, I would never fear

every rising sun would bring a smile on my face and not a tear

stringing together the broken pieces of my heart, I would look ahead

with all the tears gone, my eyes would’ve no longer looked lost and dead

Be it happiness or sadness, a tear has always been there in my eye

b'coz I still remember the day when shattering time left me high and dry

When I saw for the very first time, a mirage of joy, I just cried

When my dad left me alone, tears rolled out and I then died

Zendagi Migzara a.k.a Life Goes On, is what I am told...

In every human life

there are moments high and low

emotions from every corner, continue to grow

don’t lose heart and go away

to destinations unknown and paths astray

for Life Goes on ...

Is the only L E S S O N all the way.