I wanna get lost...

I wanna get lost from my life 

for sometime...

just sit on the side, and 

watch the world go by...

I need some breathing space

it's been too hard on me, off late

I wanna collect myself, and

relook at my fate

it can't go on like this

I have to set things straight..!!

I wanna see life from an observer's eye

for so many questions in my life 

have been unanswered, and

I don't understand why..?!

the mystics of the realm 

that I live-in

leave me spell bound 

and shocked akin

it has been quite sometime

since my head's been on a spin

I want them all to stop now

for I am feeling weighed-in..!!

I don't see how else can I

regain the control on my steer

if I don't understand

what led me here...

the only way out 

is for me to get lost

so, I wanna get lost,

I, just, wanna get lost...

Reflections by the Moonlight

as I sat by the banks of the river
under the vivid moonlight;
I saw different reflections of me
the first being the person who I had become
others, a reflect of who I wanted to be
and the rest, a reflect of the soul within me
what was real? the person whom I saw, or
a direct reflection of my soul..??!!

why did it take the moonlight reflection
to unveil this reality of life, to me
was I living in denial all along?
under the resplendent moonlight
that engulfed everything around me
I saw the distinctive profiles within ME
stretched across and over the shore line,
in bits n' pieces, which left me pondering ~
how many different lives was I living?

trapped between the wants, illusions n' reality
I was torn between them like never before
a reflect here, a reflect there, a reflect everywhere
I wanted all of them...
to be united as ONE in entirety
as it was these pieces of reflection
which when coalesced, reflected in true essence
the person, the soul that was the real ME..!!

UnBelonged

dislocated within
she did not know, whether
she was fighting it all
or giving in
to the warped time
that had shrouded her
powerless, emotionless
she did not know, whether
it should have mattered at all
or have been overlooked upon
as all that had happened
had wrecked her heart
and numbed her mind
the endless tirade
had rummaged her bind
she could no longer relate
with the world around
she felt misplaced here
she felt UnBelonged..!!

Little Girl

as she slowly wiped the tears 

streaming down her eyes

she looked in the mirror

but could not recognize 

as who she was seeing

was someone she did not identify

dead eyes, lost smile, and

an expression that was dauntingly cold 

loudly she wondered, 

"What did her life, today, behold?"

where was the little girl

who knew who she wanted to become

why had she let life take its toll

and become "Who she had become?"

there were no answers 

to her who, what, when and why

she knew she had to do something 

to get back the spirit of her life

she knelt down to collect

a fistful of golden sand

that gleamed like hope

in the centre of her hand

she took a deep breath, and 

softly whispered to the Universe

I am blowing away the miseries

and the shackles binding me

let me be the little girl I was

let me be the spirited ME..!!

Undying HOPE...

when they first crossed their paths

they knew that they had given each other

a special place in their hearts

from strangers to friends, their journey was short

for their bonding was strong, right from the start!!

he made her feel special

and called her an angel

she helped him realize his dreams

and gave him back his self-esteem

though they talked endlessly, they never met

yet, this was something they never regretted

till, one fine day...

when he disappeared from her life

without uttering any good byes

just as he had come, he had gone away

leaving her wondering what led things astray

she cried n' cried over the void he had left

she found no answers n' moved on bereft!!

years passed and, again, one day...

he returned as if he had never gone away

she asked nothing and accepted him back

and together they continued the journey of life

he set the child-woman in her free

all he craved for was her company

together, they dreamt new dreams

and this time around, they promised to meet

but this was not how it was meant to be

such cruel was their destiny!!

time compelled them to travel different paths

even when they yearned for each other

they were forced to live, anonymously, apart

she did not know what to make of her strife

whether to accept him as an anam cara

or a traveler in her life?

for what had happened once had recurred, again

and deep in her heart she was numbed with pain

yet, she longed for him to come around

so, she kept her faith alive and her will strong

she prayed that when they meet again

which she hoped that they will

all that was there, would be there still...

Mind Matters..!!

As I lie down...
I see a myriad of images 
reeling through my eyes
along with the voices in my head
these demons, they deprave me
of my sleep and any form of peace
I don't blame them for I birthed them
when I went thru' conflicting moments in life
consequentially, the thoughts 
settled deep in the confines of my mind 
and created a level of chaos
that I've never witnessed before
where I am ME and yet not ME..!!

Interlude

I choose to live free but in autonomity
and for this I shall do all that I can
with resolute strength I'll fight away the demons
and with the gifted ability to handle crisis
I'll cross all the barriers enroute
and leave my mark on the paths traveled
I'll sweep and purge my mind from all the cobwebs
to make room for fresh thoughts and opportunities
and pave the way for a new beginning from here on
I'll never look into my past for that's not my way
but the only time I will ever look back 
or dwell in it will be when I want to know 
how far ahead I've come in life..!!

Venture to Nature

As she ventured towards nature ~

she sauntered towards the prying fires

whose mystique flames raptured her abound

she whispered songs of lore in the air

even amidst the dissonance of sound

she immersed herself in the clear blue waters

floating in the streams, without being downed

she looked up at the celestial ether

where the natural paradise held her spellbound

she felt beneath her feet, the bountiful earth

that spread its subtle fragrance all around!!

After traipsing amongst the elements of nature;

she realized that the pain she felt within

would consume her, only, if she sanctioned it

she learnt that instead of letting her loneliness

fluster her, she should seek solace in it

she, also, understood that sunrise and sunset

where a part of everybody's life

and every passing moment was a new moment

that held open endless possibilities

to know the unknowns and tread the unexplored paths!!

In essence ~

What she needed was only a venture to nature

to resurrect her broken will and shaken confidence

and, set free her mind, heart and soul

to live life anew with renewed spirit and zest 

without being affected by the past and the rest!!