Betrayed trust

Standing tall and strong like a pillar of strength ~

ever since the death of our revered one

the irreparable loss that balked all our lives

I grew up overnight killing the young ME inside!

To handle the responsibility of everything therein

I toiled through endless days and nights akin

to meet the ends, so that we could live in dignity

the ride was never smooth, it was bleak and bouncy!

I faced adversities, challenges n' crisis on my own

the feelings I felt, I buried them in the unknowns

not minding even once the exaction or the dents

the sacrifices, the wounds and the heart's descent!

I slogged through years to see you smile, to fulfill

all that you wanted for to me they were worth while

it kills me within and I find it hard to believe ~

that for all my love, it was deceit that you chose to give!

I wanted you to live your life on a path that was true

a road travelled by only the blessed and chosen few

but you consciously chose to drift, go awry n' astray

you betrayed my trust, what more can I say..??!!

Not that I expected benediction or gratitude in return

I only hoped you hadn't let me down the way you'd done

the signs were showing for long but I chose not to believe

O! how I wish I had believed! I had believed! I had believed!

I let go off you, now, you be what you want to be ~

learn life the hard way for you do not deserve me

I hope you realize your sinful deeds and soon see the LIGHT

take the u-turn for good before your soul feels emptied inside!

Unchained Thoughts

I, no longer want to be enslaved

in any grief of my wounded mind,

I want to seek my life, once again ~

one that's free from all fiend!

I don't want my life to be a parody

akin the soulless that you see everywhere,

I want my free spirit to leave footprints

that will outlast me when I'm not there!

A world free of hurt n' cacophony ~

is where I want to set my ground,

hearts over flowin' with sublime love

n' floatin' mirth is what I want around!

In the depth of emotional wreckage

I let loose all of my mind's despair,

unchaining my thoughts, I set them free

to find their freedom again, in reverie!

Hope

anarchic is the world ~

in which we live-in today

where money has become the master

n' we've become its bonded slaves

where hurts of our past

have made their homes in our heart

where fears of uncertain tepid future

has left, us frenzied gropin' in the dark!

though the journey seems intriguin'

do not succumb to the testin' times

in the end, all will be right

just keep looking for the light

it's the rule of the universe

that after every dusk comes the dawn

the darkest hours in our lives

can only last until the morn'!

when you feel, you're done n' dusted with life

hold onto HOPE to guide you thru' such strife

when the paths seems steep n' hard to climb

HOPE is the balm that will soothe your mind

when trials seem unrelentin' n' shatter your soul

HOPE is the sparkle that will make you feel whole

when tears stream silently down your eyes

in such faces of travesty is where HOPE abides!

Shades of ME

She comes across as a woman ~

who has been chiseled by the realities of life,

Love, happiness, joys; betrayal, loss n' strife,

She is nature's abandoned n' destiny's favorite child;

any incident, now, can incite her enough to withdraw, or

fuel to strike back as a phoenix rising from it's own ashes.

But, this is not who the real she is ~

She is an epitome of innocence n' pure love,

a pristine soul, yearning for real freedom,

from all bondages n' being one with Mother Nature,

for that is where she sets herself completely free,

as she knows that this is the place where she truly belongs.

She is aware she is different, she is unique ~

and, she has variant of shades that make her who she is;

Sunset, twilight, calm lakes, rivers, rains n' seas,

evoke within her, her deeply hidden sensitivities n' dreams,

while soft music enlightens her heart n' mind akin,

and, poetry n' prose give vent to her heartfelt feelings.

A child woman, a lone wanderer in thirst of peace,

simplicity n' true unconditional love is all that she seeks;

It's her strong will that enthrals her to strive,

to create a world that she will call her own;

She might give up at times but she will bounce back,

I know for real that she will do this for that SHE is ME.

Rains n’ ME

It's again that time of the year ~
when the usually bright clouds turn murkier,
bringin' in with it the fiery storms
n' the thunderous lightenin' with non-stop rains,
that many of us fear; thanks to the deluge,
that crippled us all, back a few years..!!

BUT it is not always such ~
there are the subtle showers, too,
where every single drop has it's own rhythm
reverberating across the gray sky,
replenishing the thirsty Mother Earth,
to last enough for yet another passin' year..!!

I love the rains, especially the first showers,
when it sends, soft breezes as it's harbinger
n' then as the pitter-patter drops on the parched earth,
it unleashes a pleasant smell that calms my nerves,
sensitisin' every existin' feelin' within me,
while soothin' my soul n' makin' me feel whole..!!

Pauses in Life

Is my quest for eternal peace n' my callin'

a surreal boundless semblance of a mirage?

is it only me who fears on what the comin' holds?

moments keep movin' time after time

n' with it the unknown unfolds;

Life is meant to be an ongoing journey,

with every second, hour n' day addin' to it,

then why am I being forced by time to pause?

Did I happen to grow up too fast

or was it destiny that blew me apart?

as tears stream down my face,

I'm forced by time to pause ~

to seek sanity in my solitude,

askin' myself the necessary question,

why do I keep slippin' into a vortex?

when my intentions are always right..!!

With every moment that passes, it dawns,

that this too shall be lost in the bracken,

O! why does it have to reminisce of the past,

where I lost the realm of my childhood innocence,

that I still yearn in every livin' moment to overcome,

the trapped feelin' within n' set free,

the true child woman, the real ME.

Randomness

as I see, seas of humans ~

walk in endless parades

havin' masked their faces in facades

not knowin' what they are doin'

let alone know what they are talkin'

uncertain of where they are headin'

a classic case of reality checks missin'..!!

when I see them, I feel jolted out of the blues

my mind refuses to wander in their hues

to me they appear weak in their own wills

they think they are forever movin'...

even when their souls are standing still

they behave as if they belong to the knowns

when in true their realms are all unknown..!!

wouldn't life be blissful, if we lived it simple

the way our forefathers generations did for ages

their world was filled n' overflowed in blitheness

but our's is a chaotic world of sheer randomness..!!